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It is day 32 post- transplant, making it 91 days total being in the hospital, and I got the thumbs up to be released back into the real world. However, since I will need to go to doctor’s appointment and get my blood tested fairly often each week, I will be staying at the Village.  The Village is City of Hope’s Hospital housing on campus for patients and I will be here until I reach day 100 post-transplant. It is sort of like private studio with a full kitchen. This way if i have any urgent problems or need blood transfusions I can walk right over to hospital. Although it is not home, I am still excited to leave my hospital room and take another step towards living a normal life (baby steps…baby steps…)

For the past few weeks I’ve had this song in my head that I heard from a movie. I couldn’t figure out which movie it was from nor the name of the song since I didn’t know the lyrics. All I could do was hum the song.  I originally thought I heard the song from the movie “House Bunny” but didn’t feel like watching it again from the beginning. I even looked up the soundtrack online but none of the titles sounded familiar.  Tonight while channel surfing, I came across that movie again towards the beggining  and decided to watch it. Lo and behold, I heard the song and more of the lyrics, and was able to find the name of the song. It’s ironic that i finally found this song the night before being discharged from the hospital because it lets me “know that maybe I will be ok”. Stand up to cancer and register to be a bone marrow donor if you haven’t already. I hope you guys enjoy the song (if you watch the video of the song, please watch until the very end.)

(A portion of the proceeds from her album will go to Stand Up To Cancer (SU2C))

Ingrid Michaelson
“Be Ok”

Here are the lyrics.

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today

CHORUS:
Open me up and you will see
I’m a gallery of broken hearts
I’m beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

I just want to know today, know today, know today
I just want to know something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok

CHORUS

Just give me back my pieces
Just give them back to me please
Just give me back my pieces
And let me hold my broken parts

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today

I just want to feel today, feel today, feel today
I just want to feel something today
I just want to know today, know today, know today
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok
Know that maybe I will be ok